Tuesday, May 14, 2013

Carry On

If you're lost and alone
Or you're sinking like a stone
Carry on
May your past be the sound
Of your feet upon the ground
Carry on 
~ Fun 

I had some time yesterday to reflect on my problems, my thoughts, my blog post. I was angry. Angry at lots of different things. But yesterday was the last day- the last day that I allowed my problems to dictate how I feel. I am okay. And I will be okay. If there is one thing that I have learned lately it is that life goes on. Time stops for no one and there is no rewind button. If life came with a delete button wouldn't that be awesome. The road of our lives is full of twists and turns, and part of living is figuring that out. Which direction to take. I am ready to move forward, into my future. I am not sure what will be, but I am sure that it will be an adventure. 

I am not done with agility. It still is something I love. I will train Leo and see where that takes us. We may end up back in an agility ring one day. Time will tell. It is exciting to think that though. We've been training in the yard and stuff so later this summer I hope to start teaching him actual equipment. He enjoys it so far, and aside from being a little crazy is quite a perfect candidate for the sport.

Agility aside, I do a lot of other things with my dogs. It's not like they are lacking in the fun department. But I really, really miss it. So getting back to that would be pretty awesome. It's like that old pair of shoes you just can't throw away.
My mom is home from the hospital. With no further answers. It is frustrating. And although I am often angry at her, I had an actual conversation with her yesterday. And I realised that I missed her. For years I've missed her. But yesterday- she was clear, eyes wide open (literally). There is a glimmer of hope. I am not holding my breath that she won't sink back into the darkness- but I offered my hand to help her stay afloat regardless of that fact. 

One day I hope to look back on this blog post and know that this was the day that things started looking up. That I moved forward with my chin up, and eyes forward. That is what the point is you know. Carrying on, doing the best you can, and taking each step one at a time.   

P.S Can you believe the above photo was taken by an iphone?! Amazing really.  


Diana said...

Sometimes life sucks. Sometimes more than others. Hopefully we all have little things in our lives to make it better and easier to deal with.

onecollie said...

great post :)
some things alot of us could take from it, glad your mom is looking better!!

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^..^Corgidogmama said...

That photo really is terrific for coming from an iphone! Your self wisdom is amazing too.

Paws on the Run said...

Love it. Great attitude. Great goals a d glad to hear you and your mom made a connection yesterday. I can't even imagine how hard that must be.